In recent weeks, many people have been losing friends, questioning their friends’ morals, or finding their friendships strained because friends are taking social distancing less seriously than they are."Friends Are Breaking Up Over Social Distancing" Ashley Fetters, The Atlantic, April 2020 The excellent Atlantic article quoted above is about how people are ending friendships over… Continue reading The Coronavirus and Friendship
My wife has been gone for six months now. Conscious magical thinking has turned into internalized magical thinking. Early on, it was as if she was just in the other room, or was on vacation and would walk back into the house at any time. I knew this was not correct, of course, but the feelings were… Continue reading I Still Have Her Meds
My wife's kidneys failed when she was a teenager, and therefore she was getting hemodialysis for a good part of her life. The kidneys filter the blood to remove excess fluid and a wide variety of toxins. Hemodialysis replicates some of the kidney's function when a person's kidneys fail. In hemodialysis, your blood is cycled… Continue reading Dialysis Blood
It is important to know that my wife was a dialysis patient, and that she was never really healthy in all the years we were together. When we first got together, I used to count the number of days she was not in the hospital. She lived as long as she did because of her… Continue reading PTSD and Me
I lost my wife, Jenny, four months ago, on August 31st, 2016. Her heart failed. It was the worst thing to ever happen to me in my life, and these last four months have been the hardest I've ever had to endure. Jenny was a "dializor" - a term she preferred to "dialysis patient." She… Continue reading Loss and Life
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